I read an article the other day about how 95% of blogs are considered abandoned because they haven’t been updated in 120 days. This site falls into that category of 120+ days without an update (before this post), but I don’t really consider it “abandoned.” I didn’t start with any expectations of money or readership, which is good, because I lack both in significant quantities.
I suppose in some ways that’s the reason I don’t have much to say here; there’s little motivation. I don’t really want to just gripe about politics or be one of the many nameless voices reactionarily hurling (maybe this post qualifies, I don’t know and it doesn’t really matter, and is “reactionarily” even a word?). I rarely feel the need to talk about my day, as many people do.
Most days I don’t have much interest in posting for a couple reasons. The first is that I don’t feel I really have anything interesting or exciting or original to say. Calling the President an idiot loses its luster after a while (unless his name starts with a B and rhymes with “push”) and I don’t really have any interest in doing that anyway, as it serves no real purpose. I don’t feel I’m a particularly good writer (like using “I don’t feel” so often, maybe I should have gone with “think,” but which one to change? Either would probably be fine, but I didn’t pull the trigger.), and I don’t even know offhand whether or not the comma should be before or after the parenthetical aside, so I just put it where I thought the pause should be.
The second is that, as I said before, I have little motivation. I get an occasional comment, but for the most part, I’m pretty much spouting into the void, and it gets old. I could spend hours formulating a post, adjusting the sentence structure, working on the flow, and rearranging ideas until I’m happy with it, then click “Publish” and have zero to show for it. No interesting dialogue, certainly no federal policy changes. I definitely appreciate Beast’s comments, as they are pretty much the only ones I get, on the rare occasion in which I actually post.
So why bother with all the time and effort? Maybe I’d be better off tweeting my random thoughts, not bothering with proper sentence structure or coherent paragraphs. Maybe I’d be better off shuttering this blog and forgetting about it; it’s barely using any of the 120GB of space I get with my $5/mo hosting plan, and the domain is included, so it’s hardly breaking the bank to keep it up. Maybe I’d be better off starting another sentence with “Maybe I’d be better off,” or maybe not.
I can’t expect anyone to pay attention to this if I don’t update, and I don’t feel like updating if people aren’t paying attention, so I suppose I’ll have to either update more regularly or walk away.
June 22nd, 2009 at 9:05 am
I feel the same way on my blog. Seems lately all I want to post are jokes and funny videos. My original purpose was to leave something for my children so they could see why dad was the way he was…what made me the way I am, what makes me laugh and what grinds my gears.
On the political side seems whenever I do try to express my beliefs the opposition cops their “you don’t have the right to believe something that’s different from what we believe” attitude (that sh-t gets old after awhile). Besides, I get upset enough just listening to the news and to what’s happening to our country…I don’t need to aggravate it.
So I’ll just keep posting funny stuff as I find it and a reminiscence or two about growing up and and occasional peek into the depths.
Keep at it and don’t give up. I would rather read a post from you every few weeks or so that most of the daily crap that’s out there. Besides, maybe someday someone close and important to us will appreciate a little of what we’ve given.